I love Christmas. Why I don't know. It's not like it was ever a HUGE deal in our house, considering it was usually just me, Ady, Mom and Dad, but I adore it. If I had money to throw around I would spend it making the house all christmasy. And I mean all the corny stuff that you can never use again till next year, like Christmas plates, dinner napkins, dish towels, runners, lights, little christmas trees, fabric signs that declare "NOEL", all that crap. I'd buy it if I could and display it proudly.

As it is I've spent too much money on it already. During the last move we seem to have lost all our holiday decorations. And I mean the good ones, the ones we made in grade school. All gone. It's so sad. The tree is going to be decorated if it kills me and depletes my bank account though. I've spent the last week looking for interesting ornaments to put on the tree and I have a small store of ornaments that I made last year. I also spent an hour at Target yesterday buying boring ornaments, lights, a tree stand and Christmas cards.

Weird thing about Christmas cards. I feel as guilty sending them out as I do not sending them. I feel guilty if I don't send them because well soemhow I feel it's rude. Like it's required, but then I feel guilty when I do send them because I make an effort to send it to people I don't see a lot or am too lazy to call. So instead of me making an effort to spend time with them during the year, all they get is a guilt ridden Christmas card and even that is not every year. Then there is the fact that and I never know what to say in the damn things. Yep Christmas cards are definitely the one thing I don't like about Christmas.

Despite my hate for the Christmas cards I've BIG Christmas plans for the weekend. We're getting the tree, we're decorating, I'm going to try and bake some cookies and make some ornaments. I'm also going to attempt to make a wreath. I couldn't bring myself to buy one at target, they're too expensive, but I felt a nostalgic twinge for the old wreath I made in fourth grade with paper napkins and a wire hanger. I couldn't find anything like it online in the craft corners, but I'm going to do it from memory damnit and hell if it won't look like a 9 year old did it.

Let's hope I go through with at least one of these plans. I have a nasty habit of planning all this grand stuff and then come saturday I go "Pffft" (with a pushing away hand motion) "I can do it later. Right now I'm going to stay in bed and read/watch a movie" And then before I know it the weekend is gone and I've done nothing. But not his weekend. I'm a girl with a mission. A Christmas mission. Just you wait and see.