So I've been out of sorts lately with the cat being sick. It has stressed me out and left me feeling really sad because him being sick might be a sign of worse things to come. The thought of not having my little cat around is a little traumatizing to me.

And now this. Yesterday my mom emails me to let me know that my sister and I had received to packages from France from a Lawyer. Now I immediately think it has something to do with my grandmother. Is she dead? No, I calmly think, they would have at least CALLED about that incident. So then it must be related to her will as why else would a french lawyer be contacting me.

And boy was I right. Since my dad died my sister and I got his portion of what was given to him when my grandfather died, namely a portion of my grandparents house which of course is my grandmother's until she dies. Apparently my grandmother wants to give the house soley to my aunt and wants to basically buy us out and she wants to do it now.

The fact is I hadn't even thought of getting anything from them ever. It never even entered my head that I was going to get something that was supposed to go to my dad. And now this out of the blue. I mean we got no phone call, no letter, just paperwork from the lawyer. WHO DOES THAT? We don't even know if our grandmother is sick and that's why she's having this done. We don't know anything because since my dad died they've basically refused to talk to us.

It makes me so angry. I almost want to say I don't want anything. They can keep my portion of the house and their money. I mean it's like their trying to cut us out of their lives for good. Like if they buy us out, they REALLY don't have to deal with us anymore. It also makes me extremely sad since my fondest memories from when I was younger are with them, in that house. But apparently I'm still to blame for my father's death since this is the first contact they've made for three years and it's to get me out of their financial lives.

I mean WHO DOES THIS? Who does this to their grandchildren? To the last contact they have to their son? I mean we don't even know if she's doing this because she's sick. That would be nice to know. I mean despite the fact that I feel like my grandmother wants nothing to do with me, I still care. I still want to know.

So now on top of being worried sick about the cat, I've been handed some MORE emotional baggage from a family who can't seem to communicate or ever forgive anybody for anything.

So anyways I'm feeling crappy today and even buying shoes has not helped. sigh.