Ever feel like you're the annoying one in the group that no one likes? Well I did last night and it just put me in a foul mood, which of course made the situation even worse.
I suppose I was in a foul mood to start with. I'm so sick of work. I'm sick of hearing about the schedule and how everyone has these restrictions so no one can work that shift and why were they scheduled then. And how come I have the good schedule.....blah blah blah. I'm sick of guests being rude. I'm sick of drunks staying here and us putting up with it because the hotel needs the money with the renovation going on. I'm sick of telling people about the renovation and babbling for 15 minutes so they can say, "Oh we'll come when the renovation is finished."
I'm just over it. Maybe it's because it's my friday. Maybe it's because my week started with a drunk screaming at me about there being no food on property even though she's been aware of it for months. Maybe I'm just sick of feeling like no matter what I do to try and make things better I get kicked in the teeth for it anyways.
Either way all of this made me feel easily annoyed last night and I ended up acting like a bitch and being snappy to everyone and then of course other people are feeling defensive and then I get hurt because I feel like no one likes me. This is the sick stupid world I inhabit in my brain.
So I've decided to hibernate. I figure I need to be by myself for awhile so I'm not so touchy around everyone. I have three days off starting today at 3:30pm. I'm going to curl up under the blankets with a kitty on one side and a little puppy on the other and read about Anita kicking butt, catch up on my soap where people have way more drama than me, and finish the first season of Dead like Me. I may even get some aggression out by watching the presidential debate tonight and scream at Bush what a moron he is. That always makes me feel better.
That is my plan. No human contact. Just me, some fur balls and a whole bunch of fictional characters.Posted by nuala at October 08, 2004 08:29 AM