October 08, 2004
Bad Mood

Ever feel like you're the annoying one in the group that no one likes? Well I did last night and it just put me in a foul mood, which of course made the situation even worse.

I suppose I was in a foul mood to start with. I'm so sick of work. I'm sick of hearing about the schedule and how everyone has these restrictions so no one can work that shift and why were they scheduled then. And how come I have the good schedule.....blah blah blah. I'm sick of guests being rude. I'm sick of drunks staying here and us putting up with it because the hotel needs the money with the renovation going on. I'm sick of telling people about the renovation and babbling for 15 minutes so they can say, "Oh we'll come when the renovation is finished."

I'm just over it. Maybe it's because it's my friday. Maybe it's because my week started with a drunk screaming at me about there being no food on property even though she's been aware of it for months. Maybe I'm just sick of feeling like no matter what I do to try and make things better I get kicked in the teeth for it anyways.

Either way all of this made me feel easily annoyed last night and I ended up acting like a bitch and being snappy to everyone and then of course other people are feeling defensive and then I get hurt because I feel like no one likes me. This is the sick stupid world I inhabit in my brain.

So I've decided to hibernate. I figure I need to be by myself for awhile so I'm not so touchy around everyone. I have three days off starting today at 3:30pm. I'm going to curl up under the blankets with a kitty on one side and a little puppy on the other and read about Anita kicking butt, catch up on my soap where people have way more drama than me, and finish the first season of Dead like Me. I may even get some aggression out by watching the presidential debate tonight and scream at Bush what a moron he is. That always makes me feel better.

That is my plan. No human contact. Just me, some fur balls and a whole bunch of fictional characters.

Posted by nuala at October 08, 2004 08:29 AM

Sounds like a good idea to me! everyone needs to hibernate every once in awhile, and there is no better way to do it than with quality tv, books, and the unconditional love of Ribbon and Rocky. :)

Posted by: ady on October 8, 2004 09:15 AM

*i* like you.

i got the new anita too! but i haven't had time to read it yet. and who knows when i will have time. sigh.

Posted by: michele on October 8, 2004 09:32 AM

I haven't even gotten to the new anita. I have it but it's sitting taunting me because I wanted to re read them all but didn't start in time. I'm on Burnt Offerings and still have 4 books to go after that. Damn me. But I don't remember what happened in the later books so I thought it would be good to re read them...sigh.

I like you too and I miss you even more.

Posted by: nuala on October 8, 2004 10:00 AM

well i *love* you - so there.

Posted by: ady on October 8, 2004 10:24 AM

i like all of you, but that's as far as it goes, understand?

anita is good comfort food. she can kick the ass of all your troubles in her ugly, ugly nikes.

Posted by: didofoot on October 8, 2004 10:28 AM

and her stupid polo shirts which always have to match the ugly, ugly nike's swoosh.

Posted by: michele on October 8, 2004 10:47 AM

I LOVE you too.
I like anything where a woman kicks ass.....yes I know her nikes. I try to imagine them looking better...but it just never happens...sigh.

Posted by: nuala on October 8, 2004 10:52 AM

i have to re-imagine so many things in those. like jean claude's ridiculous frilly shirts, and the way everyone has way too much hair. fucking dirty hippies vampire werewolf freaks.

Posted by: didofoot on October 8, 2004 01:57 PM

well i love you!
and i've been thinking about you the past couple of days, but the glutton for punishment i am, i have TWO papers to write this weekend and about 1200 pages to read by monday.
so ya. my life sucks.
but i LOVE you!!!
feel better sweetie. those people are just stupid and suck so don't worry about them.

Posted by: jade on October 9, 2004 04:10 PM

page 534: first mention of tennis shoes, no mention of swoosh. has she turned a corner? become a better writer? NO, not at all!

this book sucks.

Posted by: michele on October 10, 2004 09:44 AM