Can I just mention that I have to be the laziest person on the planet? Not only did I do nothing for the 4th I did nothing all weekend, and enjoyed it. However during my sun deprived and TV induced coma I did manage to go out on Friday and see dun dun dun! Long-Hai! and of course some other fabulous people including Jenni, Jason, Dan Tam and Jenni's boyfriend. And well honestly I think it's why I've been content all weekend long. It's been a really long time since I've felt like myself, like the Nuala before all the family friggin drama and life crisis happened to me. It's been a while since I've been able to relax and not care what people are thinking and can I just say thank you to all of those people who were at dinner. You made me feel like me again and you have no idea how much I appreciate that because honestly I thought that part of me was gone for good. How melodramatic I sound but it's true. I've just been so tense between all the family stuff and the sumit stuff just being with people who have no real knowledge of it and remember me from before all this stuff happened was just easy and fun. Maybe it's just cause I haven't heard all your jokes yet, or cause there was so much to talk about or maybe it was just playing deuces and bitching about Pleasant Hill but thanks for the fun and for reminding me that it is still possible for me to relax. Long-Hai is leaving us to run off to Europe on his own for a couple of weeks and I wish I was going with. Have fun, I know you will and tell me all about it when you get back. I'm going to try and get out of the house now and do something that does not involve staring at a screen with flashing pictures.