So I don't know how many people know I was doing this, but I just had my interview with Santa Barbara for their Teaching Program. I want in this thing so fucking bad. It's exactly what I need. There's a lot of structure and so much support. Schools actually have to apply to have student teachers. There is always more than one student teacher at each school, there is a site coordinator and the teacher you work with. This is what I am looking for, no being thrown into a classroom with no help or instruction, no free form cirriculum, just straight forward this is the program, this is what you do, this will help you be a teacher.

This of course made the interview even more intimidating. It was me and three other girls, all who I felt had way more experience in the classroom than me. We indrocuded ourselves, told them about are "artifact" (mine was a lesson plan I did, I even made up an example of what the finished product was), and then did a group activity.

Then we did individual interviews with the panel (which consisted by the way of the director of the program, a teacher who works at a nearby school, and a student in the program now) and I had to tell them without drawing or mimicing drawing how to draw a shape. I did that alright and then I was able to tell them a little more about myself, etc.

I don't really know how I did. I felt kinda inferior, but I've done all the prereqs and I don't think I made a fool of myself. Anyways I find out early March. So soon. I am scared to get this letter. I want everyone to send out good thoughts for me. I have to go. I'm going to go see Jade and her new place and try and relax. It's out of my hands now.