Mr. Ribbon is gone. Today was hard. I spent some time with him, but he wasn't himself. Yesterday I came in and he stuck out his tongue which is his standard sign of hapiness. He fell asleep on my hand a couple of times and he was dreaming, with his little paws twitching like he was chasing a mouse down.
Yesterday was the hardest realizing he wasn't going to get better. Today was just me trying to avoid thinking until it was time. He was well taken care of. Everyone at the vet office knows him. They took extra special care of him and me. Nicci stayed with me and we both cried over him. I held him and he went quickly. It was like he was sleeping. It was so hard to think he was gone.
I went through a lot of my pictures today. I was paranoid that I didn't have enough of him and that I would forget what he looked like or how silly he could be. I found one picture where I must be 14 or 15, so it's more than 10 years ago. I'm on the couch with my feet up on the coffee table and Ribbon is on my chest sleeping, completly oblivious to the rest of the world. He's so happy. This whole situation caused me to feel like I hadn't done enough or that I didn't pay enough attention to him. That I was gone too much or that I ignored him, but I found that picture and realized that was just one of a million times when we were like that. That one time just got caught on film.
When we first move to SB, he and I used to take a nap together everyday after I got home from work. He would crawl under the covers with me and lean up against my chest and I would throw an arm over him and we would sleep.
He was the best little cat up to the end and I will miss him more than I can say. He was my first real pet which makes losing him even harder than I though possible. I remember getting him and all I could think was that he was real. And now, now he's really gone.
Miss you Baby Boy.
i'll miss his drooly fangs and how soft his cheeks were. and my dream that one day he and setiva would suddenly be un-neutered (and setiva would really be the female i pretend she is) so they could have the most beautiful long-haired gray and white fluffballs ever.
Posted by: michele on August 30, 2005 09:00 PMPoor kitty. Sorry to hear about him. God, that's a sweet picture.
Posted by: Dianna on August 31, 2005 08:38 AMoh, poor ribbon. i'm all teary eyed at work now. i loved that cat; he was such a sweet fangy guy. he had bucky's teeth but satchel's personality.
i love you and i'm so so sorry.
Posted by: didofoot on August 31, 2005 09:11 AMWhat a happy life he had with you to love him and lots of furry friends around.
Here's a big HUG from me.
Thank you for all your support. It's just nice to know that others will miss him too.
Posted by: nuala on August 31, 2005 03:54 PMNuala,
So, so sorry to hear about your kitty. That's so hard, and all of us cat-lovers feel for you.
On another, random-ass note:
(in an email from my boss)
"Iâm pleased to announce that Adrienne Mansard will be our new Administrative Project Manager starting Tuesday, Sept. 6.
Adrienne is originally from the Bay Area, but over the past four years she has worked in New York.
Adrienne is an avid lover of the arts â particularly theater. Sheâs ready hit the ground running and is eager to apply her skills towards helping Cal Shakes get to its next level of growth. I canât wait for you all to meet her."
...your sister, yeah?
Posted by: kati on August 31, 2005 10:26 PM
adrienne, you lucky duck! you got a job! will you be working on 'the tempest'? cause i'm coming to see it!
Posted by: michele on August 31, 2005 11:20 PMwow - word travels fast! and lucky duck indeed! I'm not working on any show in particular since i will be working in the office and not in production but i definitely hope to go see it.
Kati - i think i saw you when i was being given a tour...you were setting up for rehearsal with the SM. I will make sure to come by and say hi on Tuesday!
Posted by: adrienne on September 1, 2005 11:08 AMCongradulations Ady. Mom told me about it yesterday. Have fun at the new job.
Posted by: nuala on September 1, 2005 02:37 PMHey there! I've been following your blog ever since I accidentally stumbled over it one day about a year ago in a fit of boredom. I know I'm a little late here, but I just wanted to send you my sympathy on the loss of your beautiful cat. I lost my own beautiful cat a few months ago and I know how much it hurts. But it sounds as though he had a fantastic life with someone who loved him as much as you did...
Posted by: Innocence_lost on September 5, 2005 09:21 PM